That Big Green Ugly Monster

And no, I do not mean Hulk, who my son loves right now.


The hardest part for me as a stay at home mom, besides my son who I am convinced it trying to drive me mad, is money.

When I was first home with my son, it was easy because I was scared to leave the house. True Story.

Now my son is 2, almost, and we are always leaving the house. Most times not for free stuff. Its grocery shopping or yardsale-ing. We love yard sales.

I have been told a million times you are buying stuff you need, for you and the house and that family.

Well what about when it is stuff I may not need? Like stuff for me?

The look on non-financially dependent people’s faces when I mention “I am scared to spend money” is priceless. And I remember in my unattached days, not having a care in the world about spending. It may seem downright crazy to them and I understand they do not understand.

It doesn’t make the reality of checking the credit card statement any less terrifying.

If I mention this in my mom groups, they insist on meal planning. For seriously months in advance. If you meal plan, KUDOS. Really. We wing like every dinner, unless I have miraculously remembered to take out something crockpot-able. Then I know I have to get my butt in gear. As long as everyone eats right?

Somedays, I am ok with not making my own money. Other days I cannot fathom trading that in for running around after a toddler yelling No like every 10 minutes.

My husband asked me if  I wanted to go back to work any time soon. My gut response is No. See, when I did make my own money, it was via retail.

RETAIL. If you have worked retail, you know what I am talking about. If I have a choice, no, I would not step back into the world of adults not reading signs, asking a million questions and giving attitude when they do not hear the answer they want, or having to explain return policy 100 times a day.

Toddlers are not supposed to listen, they are not supposed to understand yet, they are learning. Adults.. should have a better handle on things. Maybe they do outside of shopping, but guess what? Shopping, they do not have a handle on anything.

I have worked at a bakery, clothing store, office supply store and cd/dvd store (they are still around.)

Bakery was fine because everything was behind the counter so if I made a mess, I had to clean it up. Clothing store was where I started to see the appalling level of disregard people have. “Oh that shirt I was looking at just fell on the floor, too bad.”

CD/DVD store wasn’t so bad either except you had to hand hold every single customer that came in. Greet them, tell them about the sales, tell them about the sales again because they were not listening and they refuse to glance or read the giant sign hanging. Sure, push backs were boring but easy enough.

The office supply store was fun because I love the smell of paper. Its weird, lets move on. The devil of working there was back to school season. Bins are made, they look beautiful, they are stocked and marked and great. 30 seconds later, they are falling apart and oozing whatever product was in the them. Pens, scissors, post its, shit for lockers, shit for desktops and offices, at one point actual shit. Just kidding, that was in the fitting room of the clothing store.

Working in retail has made me a better customer and I will share my knowledge with my son and he too will be a good customer. If not, I am signing him up for summer shifts at office supply stores all over.

So that is why I would not prefer to go back to work. And this is what I think about when non SAHMs tell me “I could never stay home, I need to DO something.” Eye roll.

This happened one time in particular and then I found out she had never worked in retail, and I thought “well then you have no idea what hell is and how did you manage that?”

Give and take. Ebb and flow. Up and down. Cause and Effect. Do you! Unless “you” is making something else feel bad for them doing them or hurting people physically!

Have a great day!



3 thoughts on “That Big Green Ugly Monster

  1. I too worked retail before I was married as an assistant store manager and manager. I hated the hours, weekends and holidays. I hated the rude customers. I hated doing window displays and climbing ladders to hang clearance sale signs. I’ve been a SAHM for 16 years and would only go back now if we were in dire straits financially. We are, however, very tight on cash so I’m afraid to spend money too. There’s too many emergency repairs and minor medical costs that pop up now and then to justify spending on friviolous things. (of course, that doesn’t mean I don’t give in once in a while!)


  2. hellomamabird says:

    You know exactly how I feel! I would rather not get paid and take care of my family for real. They appreciate me more than any CEO ever ever did.

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